Why I am done with being a veteran and can never be a civilian

Why I wish I wasn’t a veteran.

Would love to go back to the psychiatric ward.

First off, yes I am a veteran served in combat and saw combat. So please all judgement to yourself.

Every since I got out in 2010,

Life has yet to start again. I don’t know what I’m doing now, but it’s certainly not aiding my happiness, only triggering different things in my life that I chose not to focus on ever again.

I’ve been hopping from post to post roaming and roaming. Haven’t really found a home yet and I probably may never will.

Ever since I got out I get treated , and I’m sure other veterans can attest to this, like we think we are entitled , Special, or like the world owes us something.

I consider myself to be one of the most selfless people on this planet. It shows everyday in how I act and what I do. My life purpose seemingly acts as a martyr for everyone and every other being that’s around.

So yeah, if you feel like I feel, or have any experiences as a veteran or know someone that is a veteran please share.

Well I bid you guys adieu for a couple of weeks, months , who knows I’m going to check myself into a psychiatrist. If my plans are thwarted, I’ll be back on.

Everyone keep thinking positive out there! Your goals and dreams will come to you . Only if you manifest them.

Published by The Black Gypsy

I am The Black Gypsy and first, I would like to Thank You for visiting my blog. I created this blog as a safe haven for myself and a way to share positive thoughts and ways to help others. I found myself through spirituality and music. 
 I am a Veteran who suffers from PTSD and I also suffer from Bi polar and Depression. I also have other disabilities that affect my speaking since birth which causes daily social anxiety in my life, hence why I am an introvert who loves the World Wide Web. My mother was depressed her entire life due to unforeseen circumstances like her darker skin color, mental illness, and abuse and she took hers December 2016. Her spirit lives on through me, my music, and my ideas. 
 I am a singer – Songwriter that focuses on writing songs from my experiences in life . My goal is to serve as a vessel to the divine and to help others find their life purpose through utilizing different tools that have been created for us to use. 
 Please feel free to post positive comments or thoughts as it may help others and may be relatable as well. If you support what this blog is about, check out my music on SoundCloud as well and follow me on Twitter, Instagram and YouTube. I have traveled to nine different countries! I was born and raised in Columbia, SC. I served four years in Hawaii at Pearl Harbor. I lived in Los Angeles, CA for 4 years, New York City for a year and a half. I wanted to create a place where I can openly discuss spirituality, Astrology, and other tools of divinity without judgment. Positivity energy is welcomed and given back! Over the course of the blog I will be doing tarot cards and different interpretations of spiritual perspectives.

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