Places that may scare you :I am going to China

I am proud to say that it’s finally happening to me! My dream that I always wanted to do. I am a Veteran of the U. S. Navy military. I came from humble beginnings. I was born and raised in a small town in the South. So this is a huge deal for me. I might have traveled while i was serving, but that was different. My desire was to travel literally almost everywhere I served at while i was in.

The reason i say this is because when you are serving, it’s just like any other job, except this job is twenty-four hours and way more dangerous. So needless to say i didn’t have the time to really enjoy the places I’ve been. Have you ever had a piece of something that you took a bite of, like candy, but you felt deep down inside that you wanted the entire candy bar instead and then potentially another! Excuse me for I love sweets! You get the point right?

In 2016, while i was in New York, I decided to venture out into the world again, but i wanted to help and actually have the time to see the city that I am visiting. After some considerable research and seeing which options i had, I decided that teaching in China would be the best thing for me as it was located in the Pacific, which i love!

The trip fell through in a number of ways. I was crushed and dint knows what my next step should be. So I moved from New York to just start over. I never gave up on my dream, however. So i got in contact with my recruiter to find out if there were any schools hire. He informed that they were and as a matter of fact one of the schools from the previous year was still interested in me.

After months of careful planning and mentally putting myself through the Journey of going to China all over again, I am pleased to say I received the “Ok” to book my flight officially. So just a word to everyone out there who want to just give up because that’s the easy way out, don’t take it because it’s all worth getting what you want in the end!

I can’t wait to explore their culture and I know already about the fair skin perception of beauty. Well, I am far from fair skin, but I will be open to all their questions. I am not going to spiritually back away as Pema Chodron may say, from the” Places that may scare you.”

The practices of Equanimity

INSPIRATIONAL!

Gypsy Land

Hello,

It’s Marcellus Knicely here. I just wanted to share my thoughts and practical lesson I’m learning currently through the practices of accepting things for the way they are. For example, I am a ENGLISH teacher that have taught all over the country. So, in 2016 I decided to advance my searches to teaching in a different country. I decided to find a recruiter to be able to help me interview for quality jobs out there since I read about different scams and such that may go on internationally.

I was able to find a seemingly great recruiter and by June 2016, I was preparing to go teach in China in August. However, things didn’t work out as planned. I had a last minute conversation with my manager about how the students may actually cry from seeing my Dark Skin.

Well safe to say, I decided to turn the job…

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The practices of Equanimity

Hello,

It’s Marcellus Knicely here. I just wanted to share my thoughts and practical lesson I’m learning currently through the practices of accepting things for the way they are. For example, I am a ENGLISH teacher that have taught all over the country. So, in 2016 I decided to advance my searches to teaching in a different country. I decided to find a recruiter to be able to help me interview for quality jobs out there since I read about different scams and such that may go on internationally.

I was able to find a seemingly great recruiter and by June 2016, I was preparing to go teach in China in August. However, things didn’t work out as planned. I had a last minute conversation with my manager about how the students may actually cry from seeing my Dark Skin.

Well safe to say, I decided to turn the job down and figured I’d just cut my losses and move on with my life.

However, I felt a burning desire to finish the thing I couldn’t finish in 2016. I mean going to China on your own accord and not the military or any other support system was a big deal for me.

Especially, since I’m a guy who grew up in a small town in the south.

So I got in contact with my recruiter again and asked him could we try again. He was thrilled and apologized to me for the schools manager comment.

It didn’t take no time for me to find a school to accept me. So I felt to myself, “man this already feels easier!”

I decided to go with one of the five schools that accepted me in 2016. Although I’ve gotten farther along than I did in the process of going to China, I’m starting to feel that it may not happen yet again.

But after I’ve done some reading and meditation, EQUANIMITY as a concept Came to me. I realized that either way, I’ll be fine, because that’s what it does. It brings you calm and just acceptance of “bad” or negative energy. So here I am , just saying that no matter what you are going through, remember there’s always choices and to just accept things for the way they “Are” and know that everything is constantly changing.

The Universe has given us tools of divinity to handle moments just like these. Positivity energy is the way to go. Negative energy will just eat away at you or just fester resulting to bitterness and resentment. I am however, not saying I’m going to give up on world traveling, because I know I WILL succeed, Just like you! So don’t forget to spread your light and positive energy.

Power Thought 3

EPICURUS – Letters

3rd Century B.C.

“We can achieve tranquility and happiness simply by letting go of irrational beliefs and simply LIVING.”

This quote speaks to me in so many ways. I recall a couple of years ago when i was going for a job and i did everything in my power to pass all the tests in training. I made myself stressed out for no reason AND i ended up not being able to stay at the job. It took me about seven months to realize that after that experience of worrying and fighting so much to just keep something or to please things in your life because you feel like that is your the only option.

Well, Thats new true. A wise friend once told me that no matter what you do in life, you are always going to have more than one choice. Whatever you choose, will bring the type of karma and result you want in your life. So, i am here to say that no matter how hard or hopeless it may seem, remember to not worry and THINK positive and the RIGHT choice for YOU , will sure to come.  Just LIVE.

Philosophy Power thought 2

I feel like everyone thinks there is something wrong with living in a bubble. I say if you are not harming anybody or thing, why should it matter? Sometimes people can get overwhelmed by the negativity and energy that is in this world. It’s important what you think because those thoughts bring fruition into the physical world and spiritual world as well.

 

I believe in Equanimity and accepting things for the way they are. Meaning, if things are going not in the particular direction as you would like, only two things that can be done: either you can choose to do something about it, or you can let it fester away at your very spirit causing bitterness, negativity, and you bring things in existence that you do not want in your life.

 

Hence, that’s why it’s very important to keep an OPEN mind and FOCUS on POSITIVITY. So, everyone, I hope you go out there and let your LIGHT and purpose shine through your actions and messages that you came here to do.

 

I want to close with PHILOSOPHY by Rene Descartes; “I can doubt everything i perceive is real, but the fact that i doubt tells me that i think, that i have consciousness. And if i have this, then i must exist.”

     Therefore, if you think doubt and allow negative energy in your life, that is what the outcome may be.

BLACKENEDDAGGER: THE ROAD TO HARMONEY

I feel like the military was my father and mother. I Am very content and calm living in my little bubble. It took me a long time to get to a place of content after the military, now that i am here, why should i try to fix something that’s not broken or isn’t harming anyone?

I wanted to do everything right and follow a GOOD path; Moral, and WORLDY. I thought to have a car and your own apartment with a cushy income was the RIGHT and JUST way to live. I also thought that eventually, that would bring my comfortability and Security.

However, i didn’t take into account the layoffs, unemployment rate, and lack of motivation i had for the jobs that were available. So, eventually after hopping from Career to Career, i realized something that seems obvious to everyone :

ITS about ENERGY, HUMILITY, and SPIRITUALITY.

I believe The divine is not a RELIGIOUS figure or being.

I believe in POSITIVITY.
I believe in GROWTH
HELPING others more than just on a Financial need.

I am a seeker of the divine and practice all types of divinity.

 

Music and Feelings

When i first started diving into music i was nine years old. I knew i wanted to play the Cello because i saw it on this cartoon called “Arthur.” Unfortunately, i wasn’t able to get a Cello then. I actually purchased my first instrument almost twenty years later. It wasn’t the fact of my focus being off of music, I now understand that everything happens for a reason, and therefore it just wasn’t my time to dive into the way i would have liked to. Things change, seasons are different, so what would make us think we are designed to stay the same?

Moving on,  i learned from studying different chords, music, and songs, that they can develop feelings and come to life in a song. I asked my Guitar Instructor about this and he just informed me i would have to just learn all the chords in order to figure out which ones GO together. That lead me to curious thinking and so i decided to do a blog and post about the D Minor Chord. This chord is used in the Foo Fighters songs whenever you want to draw out endings and sadness from your songs. Its used to dictate how to let the listening know what to feel. If you would like more on this philosophy don’t hesitate to Direct message me or look at my youtube page on the D Minor Chord.

 

 

What is Blackeneddagger

BLACKENEDDAGGER

BLACKENEDDAGGER is the name I gave my Journey while I am in this Physical body in this Physical World. We all have a Journey and reason for being here. Based on my experiences with Poverty, Discrimination, and Equanimity, I’ve learned that I am a Vessel and I love the color (or gradient) of black.

Therefore, I feel A blackened dagger is one that never stabs a person and harms them. It is meant to be a healer. So I see my Purpose and want to heal. Not because of Want, but because it’s what I’ve been called upon from the divine to do.

I discovered the name one night when I was on a Deployment while I was in the military. I did not know what the name meant or why i should use it. Later on, in life, i realized it’s my expression of the world and my journey. In laymen terms, my perspective. Also, It is also my Non de Plume as a Music Producer.

PHILOSOPHY PART 1

PHILOSOPHY

HESITATION IS OPPORTUNITIES NATURAL ASSASSIN:

I will never forget when i was in my Junior year in High School in Columbia, SC. I was living in a place of poverty and despair : Mentally, Physically, and Spiritually I felt like i had no purpose and no where to go. When Ms. Brabham, My English Teacher wrote on the board:

Hesitation is Opportunities Natural Assassin.

From then on, I held those words near and dear to everything I do. I applied to colleges and different scholarships using my disadvantage of growing up in poverty, as a positive Competitive advantage. I learned that the mind is extremely important how you think even. Yeah, we already know its important what you say and do, but your thoughts give energy and feeling to deeper places that exist… even if you don’t believe. Once we realize and recognize this, thats when we will be able to EVOLVE and start to learn listens that will give us wisdom beyond BELIEF!

This world made up of Energy and what we channel is up to US.

Welcome to Hodgepodge

My name is Marz Knicely and first, I would like to Thank You for visiting my blog. I created this blog as a safe haven for myself and a way to share positive thoughts and ways to help others. I found myself through spirituality and music.

I am a Veteran who suffers from PTSD and I also suffer from Bi polar and Depression. I also have other disabilities that affect my speaking since birth which causes daily social anxiety in my life, hence why I am an introvert who loves the World Wide Web.

My mother was depressed her entire life, and she took hers December 2016. Her spirit lives on through me, my music, and my ideas.

I am a singer – Songwriter that focuses on writing songs from my experiences in life . My goal is to serve as a vessel to the divine and to help others find their life purpose through utilizing different tools that have been created for us to use.

Please feel free to post positive comments or thoughts as it may help others and may be relatable as well. If you support what this blog is about, check out my music on SoundCloud as well and follow e on Twitter, Instagram and YouTube.

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